The year of 2007

The year of 2007 is a quiet and in fact a unprosperous year for me.
I hate 2007, I’d rather sleep over the rest months of time. But how could it be possible? It’s not a problem for me to last myself alive for the rest time of this year even if I don’t work at all, because I only need little money to make a living, and I don’t have to pay for the housing, If Iam to sleep everyday day and night no one would drive me out of the room. The problem is that I am not alone in this world! I could not abandon myself to despair, I just couldn’t allow myself fail to live up the standards of my family.
What a painful life! --so vulnerable deep in my heart, yet, I have to pretend to be strong and pretend to look as if I don’t care!
One the other day, I was alone in the office, I didn’t cyberchat with anybody, I just listened to sorrowful music, I feel depressed! I can’t feel any worse! At that moment, I suddenly go into a panic and feel most perplexed of what real-life is, “Is the the life?” I asked again and again, “should it be the way what life is, I find it rather disappointing! No, this is not what I want”, I cried loudly in my inner world, “Iam not ready to accept such kind life”. But can I do? What the hell can I do? Life continues!